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Weekly Devotionals

Finding Grace Through Heartbreaks

Is it just me or does it feel like we are in a nightmare we can’t seem to wake up from these days?  It’s been well over a year, going on two.  I’m sure many of you feel like there’s no end to this whole COVID world we all live in now.  There was a time like this in my life when my despair had no end.  But not to depress anyone any more than already these days, there’s a happy ending.  I pray that God’s story through my life will be an encouragement and hope this week.  

Trying to find a glimmer of hope and faith during trials and tribulations was one of the most difficult experiences of my life.  But it was also when I experienced God’s warm grace so closely that it totally changed my life!

I got married when I was 39 years old.  Not young but still not “that” old.  As I got a late start in this whole married life, my wife and I wanted to have kids right away.  After trying to conceive naturally for the first year, we went to see a specialist to seek professional advice.  After going through all the medical tests, we were told trying to conceive naturally at our age was extremely difficult, practically impossible.   So we took the medical route of in vitro fertilization to conceive.  If you know anyone around you who went through this procedure or know of someone who is going through it, please encourage them and pray for them because it is one of the most vulnerable times for married couples.  Not to go into all the details of IVF, it requires a woman to self inject two doses of shots daily resulting in awful bruises.  Physical pain is sometimes easier to accept than the emotional ups and downs during the process.  Round after round to hear the doctor tell you that we were not successful and still not pregnant, I can still see my wife crying in her chair.  We tried for a year and half with no success.  We were heartbroken.  Physically and spiritually battered by multiple rounds of bad news of the possibility of never becoming parents.  So after trying to conceive for two and a half years, we both agreed to STOP and just PRAY.

Fast forward some time and in the summer of 2015, my wife and I joined a short term mission to Guatemala with my church back home.  One morning in Guatemala during my QT, God encouraged me with a story of Prophet Elisha visiting an older couple in Shunem (2 Kings 4:8-17) who were childless.  Prophet Elisha tells Shunammite woman 16 “About this time next year,” Elisha said, “you will hold a son in your arms.”  Funny thing is at that time I didn’t think much of it other than wow what a great story!

After a great week in Guatemala, we safely returned home.  However, my wife couldn’t shake off symptoms of food poisoning.  So we visited our family physician after dealing with it for a week.  I was in the waiting area while my wife was being seen by her doctor.  Nothing in my wildest dreams could have prepared me for what was about to happen.  I see my wife running out to me crying! I’m thinking in my head “oh man I hope she’s okay…”  I’ll never forget the next three words that came out of her mouth.  “I AM PREGNANT!”  We both cried out loud in that waiting room.  Tears of joy from years of heartbreaks and despair poured down our cheeks.  As we both held each other sobbing, we both felt God’s warm embrace and His grace.

Brothers and sisters, God was there with us through it all.  He heard our cries and saw our tears as we prayed.  I pray that you experience His grace too in knowing that God who gives life and delivers miracles in impossibility is and will always be with us even in these very challenging times.

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We named him Elisha.