surrender

eagle-eye view photography of brown pathway

05 Jan: Lean on God

It’s that time of the year. We look back to reflect and make an assessment of the year gone by.
Did we come at to top? Did we reach our goals? Did the good things outweigh the bad things? We can’t help ourselves. We are reflective beings, and whether we do it intentionally or subconsciously, we place ourselves at that context of output to measure and grade ourselves and our lives. And then we look forward for the year ahead of us, and set goals, make resolutions. And whether we are able to achieve all those things are secondary in nature. The fact is we are built to hope for things, and thus make plans. It keeps us moving with a sense of purpose and direction.

cracked glass

21 Oct: Help My Unbelief

I tried to imagine the boy’s father state of mind. To have his son, most likely an adolescent, constantly convulsing, foaming in his mouth uncontrollably. To see this day after day, year after year since the boy was a little child. I imagine this father, who loves his son, trying all sort of things, getting all kinds of help from the doctors and experts of its time, to only find disappointment. I can imagine the anger and bitterness gradually building up in his heart, the “unfairness” of his son’s condition, a total sense of helplessness and perhaps failure as a father. Can such a man even have a peaceful sleep at night?